NEVERRRR AGREE TO BE A VICTIM!
LIFE HAPPENS, SHIT HAPPENS LAKINI KATIKA VOTE NEVER — LIKE NEVERRR NEVERRR AGREE TO BE A VICTIM.
NEVER THINK AS A VICTIM, NEVER ACT LIKE A VICTIM, NEVER SEEK FOR COMPASSION, AND ABOVE ALL NEVER VICTIMISE YOURSELF.
I WAS A CHARITY CASE MOST OF MY TEENAGE LIFE!
LIFE HAPPENED, WATOTO WOTE TUKA GAWANYWA KILA MTU KWA NDUGU.
MY MOM LEFT HOME! AND THERE WAS NO HOME NO MORE.
AND MY DAD WAS SELFISH, ALIONA VOVOTE SAWA.
ACTUALLY NILIKO PELEKWA MBOGA SABA! KUZURI HATA KWETU! FINER LIFE! FINER THINGS!
HATA VYOMBO HUOSHI WALA KUFAGIA! LABDA UTAKE.
WATA KUSHANGAA! WHY? WE HAVE MAIDS, WHAT ARE WE PAYING THEM FOR!
LAKINI I WAS CHARITY CASE.
NA TULIKUWA WENGI! MORE THAN 5!
NDUGU TUNAO SAIDIWA.
TUFANYAJE SASA!
Shida ya kuwa charity case ni kila mtu anakuhurumia!
Na kila anaye kuja anataka kujua umetoka wapi?
And why in the hell are you a charity case there?
Why is your aunt so nice giving you pass to softer life?
Then they take it out on you to make you feel even more charitable case.
Telling you without your aunty, you will be nothing!
You are not going anywhere in life either ways!
You will always walk in the shadows of your sponsors!
You don’t matter! Eat your food and be glad you are a charity case. Others are not so lucky!
MIMI ILE SHOCK TU YA KUTOKA KWENYE FAMILIA YETU KUWA CHARITY CASE ILI NI SHAKE SANA SANAA. NA MAZA NAMJUA MIYEYUSHO SABABU TANGU NAKUA ALIKUWA ANA TISHIA KILA SIKU ATA ONDOKA KWENDA KUTAFUTA MAISHA KAMCHOKA MUMEWE.
SO IT NEVER SHOCKED ME ALIVO ONDOKA KWELI KWELI. NI KITU ALIKUWA ANASEMA KILA SIKU. ILA NILIKUWA NAAMINI MZEE WANGU HAWEZI KUKUBALI FAMILIA ITENGANE! KAPITIA MANGAPI?, THUBUTUUU YANGU!
Siku nimeambiwa na mama nikasema nabaki na baba!
ALICHEKA SANAA! AKASEMA “NITE MBWA AKIBAKIA NA WEWE!”
And she was right!
MZEE WAS JUST SELFISH ANASEMA: “UNAPO ENDA NI KUZURI SANAA, USIWE KAMA KUBWA JINGA! AUNTY YAKO ANGEKUBALI HATA MIMI MZEE WAKO NINGE ENDA NA WEWE.
NIKASEMA MZEE ANA NIPENDA SANAA! ATAKUWA ANAKUJA SHULE AU KWA AUNTY KUNIONA!, HE NEVERRRR CAME EITHER PLACE — SIO SHULE WALA KWA AUNTY!
MPAKA AUNTY KAFARIKI, ALIKUJA KUZIKA TU!, IMAGINE MTU KAMLELEA WATOTO WA 2! NA KWA MALEZI AUNTY ANA MKONO! HAJATOKA FALA KWENYE MKONO WAKE.
MIMI GRADUATION NILIKUWA SIENDAGI SABABU WAZAZI WOTE ABSENT!
HUU MTIRIRiKO WA MATUKIO NA USALITI WA MZEE NA MKEWE VILINIKATAAA SANAA STIMUUU!, SANA SANAAA! I MELTED! NA KUANZA KUAMINI LABDA KWELI I AM A CHARITY CASE. LABDA KWELI BILA AUNTY MIMI SINA MAISHA WALA SITAFIKA POPOTE. I AM A VICTIM! THEN I STOPPED TRYING ON ANYTHING! NIKAANZA KU EXIST TU!
WATOTO WA AUNTY YANGU WALIKUWA EXTREMELY BRIGHT!, IVY LEAGUE BRIGHT!
WELL SCHOOLED! WELL MANNERED! WOTE WAMESHINDA COMMON WEALTH SCHOLARSHIPS AND OTHER SCHOLARSHIPS!, HATA AMBAO NI WALEMAVU WAMESHINDA SCHOLARSHIPS!, WOTE WANAISHI MAREKANI NA EUROPE! WANAFANYA INTERNATIONAL ORGANISATION!AUNTY ANA MKONO WA MALEZI YULEEE! ACHAAAA!
WALE MBWAAA MBWAAA WALIOKUWA WANA NIAMBIA MIMI NI CHARITY CASE WAME NIAHARIBIA MAISHA MBWA WALEEE!, SIWAPENDIII MIMI!, I COULD HAVE BEEN ANYTHING!, I COULD HAVE BEEN IVY LEAGUE TOO! LAKINI ALL I DID WAS BECOME A VICTIM THEY CREATED! NILIDUMBUKIA KWENYE KABURI LAO MZIMA MZIMAAA.
KUDADADEKI ZANGU.
WALINIPA KAMBA NIKAJINYONGA MWENYEWE. ALL THEY HAD TO DO WAS TO PLANT DOUBTS OF A CHARITY CASE. AND I BECAME ONE. KWENYE MAZINGIRA AMBAYO I JUST HAD TO SHOW LITTLE EFFORTS AND MY AUNTY WOULD HAVE RIDDEN FAR AND BEYOND FOR ME, I SHOWED NONE! AND I FURTHER PROVED A POINT! NGOMBE WA MASIKINI HAZALIII AKIZAA DUME.
ANAISHI HAPAAA NA WANAOOO, ANA PATA KILA KITUUU. LAKINI ONAAAAAA! ONAAA ANACHO FANYA! NO INITIATIVE WHATSOEVER! HAPA UNA TUPA TU HELAAA.
MUNGU SIO MWANADAMU NA MTU SIO NYAUUU!
NIKAJA KUJIPATA KWA KUCHELEWA SANAAA SANAAA MPAKA AUNTY ALIFARIKI HAJAONJA JASHO LANGU. DAKIKA ZA JIONIIII MNOOO NDO KUSTUKA USINGIZINI KWAMBA I AM NOT A VICTIM!, I AM OF SOUND MIND! NINA VIUNGO VYOTEEE!
WANACHOFANYA NA MIMI NAWEZA KUFANYA VILE VILE. AND SINCE THEN I NEVER FORMED A VICTIM!
I REFUSED TO BE A VICTIM!
FAST FORWARD — BAADA YA HII RESOLUTION YA KUGOMA KUWA VICTIM,
NIMEPIGWA MATUKIO MAZITOOO, MAOVU, MABAYA YA KUKATISHA TAMAA KWELIKWELI —
KULIKO HATA USALITI WA WAZAZI WANGU. LAKINI I STAYED STRONG AND FOCUSED.
NAWAHAKIKISHIA ASILIMIA 200% HAMNA CHA KUNIUMIZA MIMI TENAAA! HAMNAAA!
NIMEFUKUZWA KAZI SIJUI NGAPI! NOT ONCE I FORMED VICTIM! NAFUKUZWA LEO! KESHO NAPOST KWENYE GROUP ZA CHUO: “HELP A SISTER OUT, NINA PORTFOLIO HII!”
NATUMA CV KWA RECRUITERS! YAANI SINA HATA KA WIKI KA KUOMBOLEZAAA! SINAAAA!
ALL MY TEENAGE NISHA OMBOLEZA NA KULIA MACHOZI YOTEEE! SINA RESERVE!
VYETI VYANGU SINI NAVO! AKILI ZIPO TIMAMU, VIUNGO VYOTE VINAFANYA KAZI, ALUTA CONTINUAAA!
NAPATA KAZI INGINE! IF DOESN’T WORK OUT THIS TIME, NAACHA MWENYEWE!
NATAFUTA PENGINE. SIBAGUI! SICHAGUI! ATAKAE NIZIKA SIMJUU! HIVO YAANI! NAMSHUKURU MUNGU NIMEPITAAA MAOFISIIII!, AAAH INDUSTRY KAMA ZOTE!
HATA KAZINI I NEVER FORMED VICTIM! BOSS HATA ATAKE KUNIPANDA VIPI KICHWANIIII — SIKUBALI UNYONGEEE!, THEY NEVER SUCCEEDED TO TURN ME TO MSUKULE WA OFISI!
ILIPO BIDI KUONGEA NILIONGEA! MEMO NILIZIJIBU! HEARING ZA KUTOSHAAA!
SI SIOGOPI KUFUKUZWAAA? UVU! SASA JE?, TWENDE KAZI! ALUTA CONTINUAAA!
HATA NILIPO FUKUZWA ISIVYO HALALI NA KUZULUMIWA HAKI ZANGU —
NILIMUACHIA MUNGU!, I NEVER FORMED A VICTIM! KAMA JASHO LA MTU LINALIWA, WALEEE LIWE KABEE!, MIMI NI STRAIGHT KUTAFUTA KAZI INGINEEEE!, SINA MDA WA KUTAFUTA HAKI YANGU SIJUI HAKI YA NANI!, MAMBO NI MENGI, MDA NI MCHACHE SANAA!
NIME FUKUZWA TU KAJI KAZI KANAKO LALIA NA KUNYONYA WAFANYAKAZI!
NOT LIKE NIMEKUWA MLEMAVUUU OR SOMETHING!, KAZI ZIPO NYINGI SANAAA NA NITAPATA TU!, SO NAPAMBANA KUTAFUTAAA!
NILIPATA AJALI NA KUWA MLEMAVU KWA MDA — LAKINI YET I NEVERRR FORMED VICTIM!
KUJILIZA NA KUJIHURUMIA KWAMBA SASA IMEKUWA HIVI ITAKUWAJE? NA INCAPABILITY IKASABABISHA NISHINDWE KUENDELEA NA CAREER YANGU!, I NEVER FORMED VICTIM!
I SWITCHED CAREERS KUENDANA NA HALI NA NILIAMINI NITAPONAAA NA KURUDI KAMA ZAMANI!
NIME MALIZA MAKANISAAA!, KILA NAPOENDA WAKISEMA SITA PONA — NAENDA KWINGINEEE. I JUST NEEDED TO FIND A MORE ANOINTED PASTOR! NA NIMERUDI KAMA ZAMANI LAKINI MWISHO WA UPONYAJI NIMEJIFANYIA MWENYEWE! NA KURUDI KAMA ZAMANI IMECHUKUA ALMOST 10 YEARS!, SIKATI TAMAAA! ALUTA CONTINUAAA!
KWENYE BIASHARAA NDO I WENT TO HELL AND BACK MARA HATA 100!
LAKINI I HAVE NEVER FORMED VICTIM! NIMEPIGWA MATUKIO MIMI NA SUPPLIERS, WENYE NYUMBA, SERIKALI, WAFANYAKAZI, MAJIRANI, WAPINZANI WA BIASHARA — YOU NAME IT!, LAKINI NIPO GADOOOO! NAKIMBIZA MWENGEEE! AGE IS GOING LAKINI BADOOO NIPO NIPO SANAAA KWENYE BIASHARA.
LABDA SIKU MUNGU ASITAKE — LAKINI BINADAMU DHAIFUUU MWENYE NYAMA KUNITOA MIMI KWENYE BIASHARA SIO KWELIII!, BADO NIPO NIPO SANAAAA! JINSI CHANGAMOTO ZINAVYO KUJA NDIVYO NINAVYO ZIPOKEA!, FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION!
MIMI KUJI VICTIMISE NI NEVERRRRRRR! WATA NITE GENEZEA MAZINGIRA YA KUNIHUJUMU NA KUNIFANYA VICTIM! LAKINI WAKAE WAKIJUA — PIGA UA GARAGAZA, NITA RISE FROM THE ASHES TO GLORY!
WALE WALIOSEMA MIMI NI CHARITY CASE — KILA WAKIJITAHIDI KUJISAHAULISHA, NAWAKUMBUSHA: “I’M JUST A CHARITY CASE.”
NO MATTER UMEPITIA NINI KWENYE MAISHA
USIKUBALI KUWA VICTIM NA ONDOKANA NA VICTIM MENTALITY!
RISE AGAIN FROM THE ASHES. UNA AKILI TIMAMU!, UNA VIUNGO VYOTE!, UNA AFYA NJEMA!, UZIMA UPOOO!, YOU HAVE ALL YOU EVER NEEDED TO SUCCEED!, DON’T LET ANYONE CHEAT YOU TO BECOME A VICTIM!, YOU MY DEAR ARE A WINNER AND DESTINED FOR GREATNESS!, LET ALL MEN BE LIARS AND ONLY GOD BE TRUE.
1 Corinthians 15:57
“But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.”
Philippians 4:13
“I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.”
John 16:33
“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace.
In the world you will have tribulation.
But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
